2018
There is a lot of good in this world. Good people, good places, good experiences and sometimes when we look close enough we realize that we have a good life.
2018 has been a year of growth, trial and error, heartache and pain, laughter and joy and a formation of a different Bryn all together. It is amazing thinking about the fact that almost one year ago this month I was returning home from an 18 month journey that I would not trade for the world. I was tried and pushed and strengthened in more ways than I thought possible. Something that I have learned over the past 12 months is that God has high expectations and a lot of love for me. He knows me perfectly and He knows that I am far from done. He was not even close to pushing me past my comfort zone once I stepped off that airplane with my incredible mother.
This year I have seen the aftermath of a divorce. I have felt sorrow and pain deeper than what I thought possible. I was confused and broken in ways that I could have never imagined. I saw my dad with a different woman and watched my mom start to date a different guy. I cried and I hurt and it was confusing for me to live the life that my family had been living for a year before I had gotten back. Families are incredibly important and I have been able to grow closer to my siblings this year because of the things that I learned while serving in Brasil.
Brasil taught me how to love unconditionally and how to start to receive love in return. Brasil taught me that I have so much potential and that I have great worth. Brasil taught me that I am capable and strong. I learned that I can do hard things and love hard people and go through trials that would have originally broken me.
I spent 11 weeks in the woods of Kamas teaching 13 year old girls about their Savior and the love that He has for them. I spent days walking and drinking water and doing activities and learning how to be patient every single day. I learned how to be even more punctual with everything and use my time even more wisely. I learned how to love people who are different than me and have a different life style and trials and strengths than I do. I learned how to get to know people on a personal level within days. I learned how to be teachable, but also be a teacher. I learned the importance of family. I learned that you can make people feel worthwhile and that a testimony is an essential part of this mortal life. People are sent to our lives to help and teach us and give us the opportunity to become who Heavenly Father needs us to be. He is aware of every single aspect of our lives and He knows when we need kindness and humility and when we need confidence and strength. He blessed me with teenagers who loved me and looked up to me and taught me through their examples. They lit up my summer and I will never forget my little flock and favorite birdies and those amazing young women who called me Tweety.
I had my first boyfriend and first heart break this year, both being different boys. I learned that I am worthwhile, but that I do not have to settle for less than what I know that I need. Boys can be cool and kissing is not a bad thing. It is important to open up and let people into your life. They can only try so hard for so long and it is completely up to me whether I allow them past the surface. Sometimes people come into our lives for a short time, and I am thankful for the moments that made me happy with the people that God put into my life. He knows all. He is aware and somehow everything will work out the way it is suppose to.
I wanted to date a boy this year and it ended up not working out after months of going out things ended and I was devastated. My heart hurt when we had the talk and I did not know what was going to happen or why I was not going to date this way rad guy. But through the months following I met a lot of other way cool guys. I saw different characteristics that I liked and I learned how to get along with other people. I had to open my mind and my heart and go for it. I went on so many date these past 7 months that I never thought possible. I have talked to so many boys and just realized that I am pretty cool too. My worth is not based on the amount of boys who match with me on Mutual or comment on my posts on Instagram. It is not about them at all. It is all a learning experience and for that I will forever be grateful for the boys who have came into and left my life during this year. For the things that they have taught me and the doors that they have opened for me. For the fun dates that I have experienced and compliments that I have received. For the hands that I have held and lips that I have kissed I am forever grateful for nice boys.
I am thankful for my mom. She has been my rock and friend. My listening eye and go to gal. She has been absolutely everything to me ever since she stepped off of Caiu's car in Curitiba in front of my apartment. She is my favorite person and has listened to more boy stories and seen more movies with me than I could ever count. Momma C is the greatest mom and friend that I could ever ask for. I am thankful for the trials that we have been through that have helped us get to where we are today. I am thankful for her strength and her love and her kind words of encouragement. I am grateful for her example and perseverance that teach me never to give up and always be kind. She has reviewed countless essays and told me that I can do hard things. She has paid for my rent and bought me a countless amount of grocies. I love my mom more than any person in this world and I will always be thankful for our talks and walks and dates more weekends than not.
In 2018 I have learned the importance of family. I have learned how to manage my time when all I have wanted to do was take a nap. I have worked, gone to school, dated, hung out with family and gotten my homework done all in the same day, week, month, and now year. I can do hard things. I am blessed for my efforts. God knows me and He knows my heart. Daily scripture study and frequent temple attendance have helped me have time to get everything done that I need to. I am grateful for the B's that I have received and the W that had to be taken. I am thankful for the roommates and classmates that have taught me. It is a good year, Charlie. I am a better person because of the experiences that I have had and the people that I have met. I know heartache better and the importance of asking inspired questions.
So here is to change and love and hope and faith. It is a good life. I love you all and I am thankful for the impact, influence, and example that everyperson who walked into my life has had. Here is to 2019 and a whole other year filled with those I love and loving those people in return.
xox beijo your bff
Bryn
2018 has been a year of growth, trial and error, heartache and pain, laughter and joy and a formation of a different Bryn all together. It is amazing thinking about the fact that almost one year ago this month I was returning home from an 18 month journey that I would not trade for the world. I was tried and pushed and strengthened in more ways than I thought possible. Something that I have learned over the past 12 months is that God has high expectations and a lot of love for me. He knows me perfectly and He knows that I am far from done. He was not even close to pushing me past my comfort zone once I stepped off that airplane with my incredible mother.
This year I have seen the aftermath of a divorce. I have felt sorrow and pain deeper than what I thought possible. I was confused and broken in ways that I could have never imagined. I saw my dad with a different woman and watched my mom start to date a different guy. I cried and I hurt and it was confusing for me to live the life that my family had been living for a year before I had gotten back. Families are incredibly important and I have been able to grow closer to my siblings this year because of the things that I learned while serving in Brasil.
Brasil taught me how to love unconditionally and how to start to receive love in return. Brasil taught me that I have so much potential and that I have great worth. Brasil taught me that I am capable and strong. I learned that I can do hard things and love hard people and go through trials that would have originally broken me.
I spent 11 weeks in the woods of Kamas teaching 13 year old girls about their Savior and the love that He has for them. I spent days walking and drinking water and doing activities and learning how to be patient every single day. I learned how to be even more punctual with everything and use my time even more wisely. I learned how to love people who are different than me and have a different life style and trials and strengths than I do. I learned how to get to know people on a personal level within days. I learned how to be teachable, but also be a teacher. I learned the importance of family. I learned that you can make people feel worthwhile and that a testimony is an essential part of this mortal life. People are sent to our lives to help and teach us and give us the opportunity to become who Heavenly Father needs us to be. He is aware of every single aspect of our lives and He knows when we need kindness and humility and when we need confidence and strength. He blessed me with teenagers who loved me and looked up to me and taught me through their examples. They lit up my summer and I will never forget my little flock and favorite birdies and those amazing young women who called me Tweety.
I had my first boyfriend and first heart break this year, both being different boys. I learned that I am worthwhile, but that I do not have to settle for less than what I know that I need. Boys can be cool and kissing is not a bad thing. It is important to open up and let people into your life. They can only try so hard for so long and it is completely up to me whether I allow them past the surface. Sometimes people come into our lives for a short time, and I am thankful for the moments that made me happy with the people that God put into my life. He knows all. He is aware and somehow everything will work out the way it is suppose to.
I wanted to date a boy this year and it ended up not working out after months of going out things ended and I was devastated. My heart hurt when we had the talk and I did not know what was going to happen or why I was not going to date this way rad guy. But through the months following I met a lot of other way cool guys. I saw different characteristics that I liked and I learned how to get along with other people. I had to open my mind and my heart and go for it. I went on so many date these past 7 months that I never thought possible. I have talked to so many boys and just realized that I am pretty cool too. My worth is not based on the amount of boys who match with me on Mutual or comment on my posts on Instagram. It is not about them at all. It is all a learning experience and for that I will forever be grateful for the boys who have came into and left my life during this year. For the things that they have taught me and the doors that they have opened for me. For the fun dates that I have experienced and compliments that I have received. For the hands that I have held and lips that I have kissed I am forever grateful for nice boys.
I am thankful for my mom. She has been my rock and friend. My listening eye and go to gal. She has been absolutely everything to me ever since she stepped off of Caiu's car in Curitiba in front of my apartment. She is my favorite person and has listened to more boy stories and seen more movies with me than I could ever count. Momma C is the greatest mom and friend that I could ever ask for. I am thankful for the trials that we have been through that have helped us get to where we are today. I am thankful for her strength and her love and her kind words of encouragement. I am grateful for her example and perseverance that teach me never to give up and always be kind. She has reviewed countless essays and told me that I can do hard things. She has paid for my rent and bought me a countless amount of grocies. I love my mom more than any person in this world and I will always be thankful for our talks and walks and dates more weekends than not.
In 2018 I have learned the importance of family. I have learned how to manage my time when all I have wanted to do was take a nap. I have worked, gone to school, dated, hung out with family and gotten my homework done all in the same day, week, month, and now year. I can do hard things. I am blessed for my efforts. God knows me and He knows my heart. Daily scripture study and frequent temple attendance have helped me have time to get everything done that I need to. I am grateful for the B's that I have received and the W that had to be taken. I am thankful for the roommates and classmates that have taught me. It is a good year, Charlie. I am a better person because of the experiences that I have had and the people that I have met. I know heartache better and the importance of asking inspired questions.
Camping during my birthday and when my opsession with fanny packs started. Auzzie (Emily Hansen) and her friend Kiani.
There's never a day that goes by that I do not remember or use something that I learned or talk about how much I love Brasil.
My first group of Tweety Birds at Oakcrest
When I learned how to love 13 year old's and hugs and teaching about the gospel in English. When I learned the importance of love and testimony meetings
Also the first time I put charcoal on my teeth. Lolol.
So here is to change and love and hope and faith. It is a good life. I love you all and I am thankful for the impact, influence, and example that everyperson who walked into my life has had. Here is to 2019 and a whole other year filled with those I love and loving those people in return.
xox beijo your bff
Bryn
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